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Future ... It looks so misty and so blur to me Actually I really don't know what to comment about myself Too lazy ? Not strive best at all ?  Haizz Can be life just be easier ? I hate to do decisions because I felt that whatever decisions I do I will eventually regret for it >< My parents always said that listen to your heart My teachers said that do what you interest for My friends said that "follow us" to the ... university But I really don't know what I want I'm just too tired to think about it Should I just leave this complicated question behind ? 18 years-old Ya Just 18 the life experiences that accumulate 18 years is not enough for me  to do such important decision T.T Cried my heart out As loudly, as madly as I could Can I have a sleep  then all thing can be just settled ? Although I looked mature I am just a teenagers who "darah setampuk pinang"

Before the result of SPM release all of us are anxious about it After the result release it is the time we really have to say "Goodbye" and choose a pathway to our own future ~ Most of you choosed to continue your studies at private college Utar / MMU / Manipal Taylor / Inti-Nilai / Sunway ... What I can do is just that wish you all  all the best and may you have a bright future =D truely bless you all my friends ~ So how about myself? Don't think too much and try my best to apply whatever scholarship I can Just like what my scout senior said: "If you think too much Nothing will be done Just get things on-going  Then every thing should be alright" Fine I will try my best in applying the scholarship  and enjoy my National Service Just left all the things to fate As I had tried my very best Nothing should be regretted =) Study : National Service : Good luck : Blessings ^^

21 March 2013 I think that I will NEVER forget this  unfortunate / memorable / sad / frustrated / dissapointed / fateful  feelings / day  ~ Should I be grateful? Although the result is not as good as I wish I had already in the category of "Pelajar Cemerlang" However, I really cannot feel any happiness but I had tried my very best... That's what I can say Straight As' Ya 3A+  5A  2A- Is also straight As', but sorry to say that I am really devasatated to the core when the minute I knew that my Bahasa Malaysia didn't score an A+ Although Crying cannot make anything change however, at that moment I just cannot stand anymore I had work extremely hard for it BUT what I get? WHAT I GET ? Fine Let bygones be bygones Crying cannot make any change at this moment It will just make me uglier Ya As ugly as the witch Bahasa Malaysia A subject that I really concern for A subject that I really confid

After the Medical Check-up ... Going to attend the NS Kem PLKN Semarak, Pekan, Pahang Tanjung Gosong Kampung Tanjung Selangor 26600 Pekan  Pahang I'm comming ~ =) Although parents seem not so happy this is my life I can make my own choice I may not follow the plan brcause there are unknown"s" in life who knows next second you will be dying ? Before going... Preparations are needed Hate to prepare cause don't know what to prepare! Heard friends back from NS said that   they fight in the camp Hope that  I won't have to face this type of "friends" Just let me enjoy the camp will do others please shut-up and leave Please don't ever challenge my patience  if not I won't grant the outcome  OK ?! 30 March 2013 : Approching : NS : New phase of life experiences

Start from  morning till now went to   Bank Simpanan Nasional (BSN) and the Hospital to do all the preparation for NS Feelin' weired Cause I haven't decide whether want to go for NS or not It seems that NS is quite fun Can know new friends from other parts of Malaysia and gain new experiences about life Although is looks fun there are still reality to face  How about my study in future ? This question had confused me several nights made my mind exhausted completely Should I go NS ? Let's se the result of medical check-up bahh if can then I will go if cannot then I will not go Let it be  ~ ^^ 1st time fetched home by one of my best friend FOO haha Really thank you for  accompany me for the medical check-up and fetch me home  Thx =D

17 March 2013 The last day I work in the TanjongMas Bookcentre Well It was memorable =) Enjoy the last day Treated with Kentucky Fried Chicken haha To celebrate the leaving of Hanif to Wetex and for me "Mereka siap nak nyanyi lagu Bertemu & Berpisah"  "Apalahh" >< Haha Promise that will go back one day  to reunion with them =) Ya, This is Malaysia Although our religion, races are different BUT we still can get together to complete the mission Appreciating ... Working : Epilog : Meaningful : Memorable

There are a myraid of choices National Service ? A Level Study ? SPM Result ? Ya A lot of choices till I don't know what to choose Friends are back from the National Service The Narional Service sounds good but  my parents seem not supporting me to go for it And friends who reject to go for it  is now regreting Don't know what to say about him But I don't want follow his steps and regreting now So  Do I go for National Service ? About the A Level study CIE or LE should I choose ? I personal preffered LE Maybe The modular system is better for me Cause I think  I cannot stand any more for examination oriented study If I have the golden opportunity HELP uni  will be my first choice haha  Hope that the goverment will come out some policy  like last year's Bursary Praying~ =D Result... My friend told me that  He had insomia for several days Cause afraid that he cannot get straight A&

我并不相信 频密的相聚 能够拉进彼此的距离 因此， 我把自己藏的很好 毕竟 古人说过 “金风玉露一相逢，便胜却人间无数” 所以 我把自己“隐藏”了 但是 如果我们的友谊需要到 频密的相聚 才能保存 那么 我相信 无论你我 都会感觉到力不从心 因此 我不会挽留这段勉强的友谊 君子之交原本就是 淡如水 心如止水 只有 心领神会的人 才会珍惜那一瞬间美丽的事物 哪怕只是一瞬间 便能够回味无穷 友谊。长存？ 或许你我的定义不一致 我无权干涉你的自由 是否长存？ 那就看缘份吧 ~

Well, In this stage of transformation There are thousands even millions  of question that need an actual answer BUT I am not sure how to answer it correctly OR Maybe just the question had no answer ? Leaving... Yea, leaving my first work which I initially felt that no so good  for me but in the end I found that  there were actually fun, tears and experiences Working with the "M"s is actually quite a new thing for me and I really appreciate the moments with you all Miss Tan Kak Jane Kak Lin Kak Nabila Kak Yana Kak Izzah Muiz and Hanif Thank you for the surprise belated birthday for me and thank you all for forgive me my mistakes during working Now I'm leaving to another stage of my life Hope that we will meet sometime  in the future ... Approaching...  Yep, decision is approaching What do you want to be?  Now is a serious question BUT I have NO answer I cannot fore-see

20 of March 2013 is approaching that's means the result of actual SPM is getting nearer and nearer or maybe just around the corner? March 2013 the month of tiredness, stressful and meaningless Tired  because I need to face all the problems to choose the future pathway Stressful because the day of the result to release is getting nearer and nearer maybe just outside the door? Meaningless because this month I need to do all the preparation for the National Service and  the scholarships Ya! this is my life May I have the rights to do my own choice? NO FINE ! And just let it be!