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心湖荡漾

好难得
有个的空的夜晚

好难得有机会
真正的与自己独处

好难得
的心湖平静

很多
的好难得。。。

难得蛮开心的说

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全部瞬间就

哐当

被一竹竿打翻了全部的寂静
全部

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还是老样子呀
还是没有变
还依然天真
还依然抱着虚无飘渺的希望
还依然单纯的相信着自己那狂妄的能力

还依然是那个
想要潇洒,却也潇洒不起来的那个自己

难得的心湖宁静
还真的荡漾了
泛起了层层自责的涟漪
激起了那该死的海啸


难得的颤抖了呀

微微的颤了两回

还真的是寂寞空虚,绝望头顶,万念俱灰的感觉

害怕吗?
担心吗?
失望吗?
纠结吗?
不舍吗?
无能为力吗?
力不从心吗?

“孩子呀,那宝宝的死活与你无关呀,何须自责呢?”

“菩萨呀,羊入虎口,能不急吗?”

“孩子呀,那是羊的决定啊!每个人都有活出自己的权利,你为何又要插手呢?”

“菩萨呀,在老虎的肚子里,又有什么未来可言呢?”

“孩子呀,你不是说每个生命都是个体吗?你不是说自己尊重他人的独立思维吗?那就由他去呀,每个人都没有理由照着我们的意愿或者,如果有的话,这个世界就不多元了。”

“菩萨,是我心智不够成熟吗?不够开放?”

“孩子,别纠结了。人各有志。既来之,则安之。随缘吧~”

。。。

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该来的,始终会来;
该发生的,始终会发生。
既然没有理由阻止;
也没有理由劝阻。


就随便吧~


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