前往大学列车车站1 1.1

时间过得好快
一转眼才发现
已经两个月没有爬上这里了

在新山的时间也过得好快
一瞬间罢了就过了一个月多

寄人篱下的日子
不言而喻
虽然说不上可怜兮兮
自然也说不上自由逍遥

在新山
学到了很多
神经也紧绷很多
才发现
很多事是不能够任性乱为的
更多事是不能够剖白相对的
最多事是必须用谎言包装的

一开口若说错话
很有一失足便成千古恨的感觉
杯具。。。

在这里常说的一句话就是
“你们放工了就真的放工了，我放工了还不一定放工”

放眼望去
我还只是入世未深的黄毛小子罢了
真正的的确确还未放工的
才是噩梦的开始

其实想想
最后还不是那一句老话

“还不是为了你们好？”

当这句话一想起
万怨具灰后
还可能会叩头谢罪
可笑吧

当赏你一巴掌的手与喂你吃饭的手
是同一只手时
那内心剧烈的拉锯才是所谓的矛盾吧

当信任你的人与背后捅你两刀的人
是同一个人时
那内心的剧烈反抗，强烈的抗拒才是所谓的无解吧

我不希望自己变成那个连自己都讨厌的自己
但越是抗拒改变的速度就越快
站在镜子前也只能叹息是自己变了

这种无奈希望不要长久的伴随着我
随风而去吧
我会很感激你的
真的。。。

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